The enchanted forest

Remember those fairy-tales where trees could walk, talk and feel? They might be based on real life! I am currently reading The hidden life of trees which feels exactly as Tim Flannery (introducing the book) describes it: a wonderland. The author, Peter Wohlleben works in the lumber industry and manages a forest with the purpose of harvesting it for commercial gain. His insights and his discoveries about trees have shaped the content of The hidden life of trees and reading it, you will feel once again, you do not know a thing about the universe or the world we all live in. At least, that is what I have learned from its teachings.

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Once again, nature and research on nature have proved that Mother Earth has so much to teach us. As Shakespeare wrote:

“Keep these flowers. We’ll see how close art can come near their colors.”

Reading Peter Wohlleben’s work you will feel we must preserve nature as there is nothing else more important than our environment. Nature is wise. Nature is what we are made of and nature can shape our existence once more, for if, there is no more trees, there is no more life. I find the discoveries of this enchanted forest (as this is how it feels when you read through the truly hidden life of trees) are such an amazement that you will find yourself surprised and humbled by how little we care about the world we live in. Another quote from Shakespeare pops my mind:

“Our bodies are our gardens, to the which our wills are gardeners.”

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Forest trees communicate between themselves to make sure they act in unity, because if they would not do that, there would not be a forest anymore. A forest is made up of all trees in it. It is a community that feeds itself, that takes care of the weakened trees, that protects and makes possible the biodiversity in it, it is a community that knows how to act in accord to maintain the balance and to grow strong. A forest tree knows how to speak to other trees as this is what parent trees teach their children. Yes, trees have children and they grow by their parents side. Upbringing is a special process through which the child tree is not let to grow at the speed of light, rather it is deprived of it, because a tree that grows slow is a tree that will live longer. Have you heard of that lifestyle in which if you eat less, you live longer? It works for trees! Another surprising knowledge is that planted tree forests (so not wild forests) are incapable of networking with one another because their roots are irreparably damaged when they are planted.

Crops need pesticides and all those chemicals because they cannot communicate with one another and cannot inform themselves of the dangers that awaits them as trees do in forests. Forest trees can use scent or wind to attract specific predators for the predator that the tree has. It can signal this to the neighboring trees and it can plump toxins in the leaves that are eaten by predators so that they stop eating them. Because of this communication, the other trees understand the risk and take caution measures which in turn, protects the ecosystem because they are no longer threatened. When they do not react, the trees are harmed. If all trees were harmed, then there would not longer be a forest. Unity is creating community. Wouldn’t that be brave of us to do the same thing? Another fascinating, if not close to sci-fi fact, is that the saliva of each species is different, and trees can match the saliva to the insect. The match is so precise that the tree can release pheromones the summon specific beneficial predators. The beneficial predators help trees by eagerly devouring the insects that are bothering them.

Do you have any remembrances from the creepy forest Snow White ran to, when she was let alive?

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When Snow White ran through the forest, it appeared to become hostile towards her; an owl screeches at her, trees resemble leering faces, branches become talons snatching at her dress and floating logs become crocodiles snapping at her heels. After collapsing in fright, Snow White encounters the forest animals, and the forest seems less scary to Snow White, now that she has friends with her. The forest might feel creepy because it must protect the biodiversity and the ecosystem in it. If it feels someone is trying to destroy that harmony, it will react. Sure, Snow White was just a fairy tale, but, we all know where this leads to. Forests can be threatening and they should be. They are maybe protecting our future from our current mistakes.

The fungal connections at the bottom of forest trees transmit signals from one tree to the next one, helping the trees exchange news about insects, drought and other dangers. In the symbiotic community of the forest, not only trees but also shrubs and grasses and possibly all plant species exchange information this way. However, when we step into farm fields, the vegetation becomes very quiet. Thanks to selective breeding, our cultivated plants have, for the most part, lost their ability to communicate above or below ground. Isolated by their silence, they are easy prey for insect pests. Another reason for which we should stop destroying wild crops and for taking care of the wild vegetation.

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Trees synchronize their performances so that they are all equally successful. We should all stop being so competitive at work and work for a common purpose. This is what I am getting from the tree’s wisdom. The trees are equalizing differences between the strong and the weak. Whether they are thin or thick, all members of the same species are using light to produce the same amount of sugar per leaf. This takes place through the roots and fungi are involved as their enormous networks act as gigantic redistribution mechanisms. When trees grow together, nutrients and water can be optimally divided among them all so that each tree can grow into the best tree it can be. Isn’t this beautiful? Sharing is caring! Reproduction at trees is planned at least one year in advance. I will let you pick the book and read about their love stories.

When trees are really thirsty, they begin to scream. This takes place at ultrasonic levels. Scientists recorded this and discovered a specific vibration that occurs in the trunk when the flow of water from the roots to the leaves is interrupted. The trees might be screaming our a dire warning to their peers that water levels are running slow.

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There is so much more information and fantastical data and facts in this book that I feel it is an urgent read for all 7 billion people that we are on this planet. In this way, we would be able to see the impact wilderness has on life, on our life. Without the wild communication that exists out there, there would be no air, for forests provide oxygen. There would be no diversity in our ecosystems. There would be no fruits or vegetables. Remember reading about that enchanted lovely wonderful forest in our fairy tales when we were children, wishing we could speak to trees and be there to live the dream? The magic is real and we do live in an enchanted forest. We just need to open our eyes and our minds.

 

What I have learned about myself from my missed opportunities

Apart from experiencing the obvious regret of failing to accommodate my brain and my attitude to handle the opportunities life threw at me, there is something else that happens when you realize you are not taking full advantage of your potentials. That is, in my case, all the things that I have discovered about myself because I missed the opportunities. First of all, I also missed opportunities right when I was facing them, in the sense that, that specific opportunity intimidated me so much, that I could not grab it. That, is unbelievable a powerful self disappointment, which transforms your future self adjusting to opportunities in 2 ways: one, realizing that the opportunity wasn’t quite as you expected it to be, or it is not really such a huge opportunity, but because you were so close to it, you managed to actually realize that, which in my case, made me understand I am a powerful opportunity myself (great to see that when in front of another opportunity, it’s a bit of a comparison type of enhancing one’s self esteem and self image) and two, one opportunity can actually develop a new opportunity in your life, because you took advantage of the first one, like a rolling snow ball effect. However, how equipped are you to actually have the courage to take the opportunity to achieve that?

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I know I am not that well trained in that direction. Moreover, I find myself criticizing everything I am inspired to do because of my perfectionist aura, hence sabotaging myself, lacking the courage to actually confront my fears and grab that opportunity. So, this is, what I have learned from my missed opportunities experiences:

  • I am afraid of a certain degree of success, because I am afraid I am not able to handle it because I never had a success to know how it feels or what it actually means
  • I am ashamed to ask for certain things from people, even when I know that could help me because I feel I do not deserve it and this is because of my perfectionism
  • I am embarrassed when I meet new people who have tremendous success and they are so much younger than me as this shows, at least to me, that I have not had that much drive to actually stand out and that’s because I am not really sure if I really want to stand out and be the actor or if I would rather prefer to simply have a comfortable seat to watch the show
  •  I don’t feel ready to take the leap and get out of my comfort zone because I do not think that to have success you must force something that you do not enjoy. I believe success comes from something you do easily and with joy
  • I am scared not that I will fail, but rather that I will possibly have a TOTAL COLLAPSE
  • I would not take an opportunity if I feel I have to stretch more than I feel comfortable to
  • I experience nervousness and its physical symptoms and I cannot cope with that stress (this happens when that amazing opportunity appears and I am told to go for it)
  • I become inhibited when I am in front of the great opportunity – my voice is lowered in volume, it kinda becomes shaken and blurred, I cannot find my words and my body language tells the other person I am shy. But that is not being shy. That is much worse. It’s intimidation. Inhibition. And inhibition is felt as if I have a block, a wall, a stop in front of everything I wish I could be or do at that time. It is transforming me into someone uncomfortable in my own skin, it makes me super aware and conscious of all my flaws and it gets in my way of accelerating my success. It’s a fail.
  • I am way too conscious of how I am perceived to the point that I deny myself different things, from kindness to gifts, to pleasures of life and even peace of mind. I torment myself with how stupid I could have been.

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These would be a few of the flaws that become visible now to you as well when I miss an opportunity or when it presents itself in my face and I look at it and let it pass by, making a strong long felt miserable impression of myself as well.

But there is also good things that come from missed opportunities and from all the flaws that make themselves seen when failures occur. This is positive aspects I have learned about myself from my missed opportunities and my missed opportunities feelings:

  • I am highly emotional and yet I have a rare degree of balance to which I can turn to find self comfort. This makes me overly sensitive and this hypersensitivity causes fear, timidity and lack of self confidence along with feeling overwhelmed by my self consciousness, but all of this spring from positive characteristics I possess such as my acute awareness and intuition. I am like an antenna for other people’s feelings and I often know before a word is spoken how they feel. I would not be able to have this capacity if I would not have experienced it myself. As a result, I have an enormous empathy for the inner turmoil of others and can do much good for people with emotional problems, something I intuitively felt a long time ago, when I decided to pursue my vocation as a psychotherapist or counselor, or healer of some sort. Which I didn’t, but that does not prove anything. I am in a position of helping people anyway, and I am learning patience everyday, every single moment. Hard times, hard jobs make you discover even more your personal power and even if I had not had the courage to follow my path in the first place as I chose it, I know it was a road I had to travel to become how I am today.
  • All the flaws I have are also qualities. Without my sensitive nature I would not have been aware of people’s expectations of me. I would not have been that easy to work with, therefore making my way in life easier and my life flowing like a river instead of a stormy sea and I would not have understood myself so well.
  • Due to my intuition, I am more sensitive, making my path a little easier and more direct, because I intuitively know the appropriate next step.
  • My perception of life is somehow more acute than others (when comparing myself with other peers) as I feel I see more clearly (for my future and my self) and more spiritually due to my high degree of sensitivity
  • I have learned to cherish myself more because I am my worst critic.
  • I value one particular lesson the missed opportunities taught me: I will be better prepared for the next opportunity
  • I am actually an optimist, a dreamer, someone that can see into the soul of things and I feel totally impractical at times. But this keeps me going through failures. If I missed an opportunity I know it is because I have to miss this one to be able to see better and grab the next one that is to arrive.
  • I do not believe in miracles, or that the next opportunity will not come. I know miracles exist and I know the next opportunity will arrive, so I would rather get myself ready for it. I rely on opportunities and miracles!
  • I became more creative and inventive after one opportunity missed, because I create in my head all the things I could have said and done to attract it better in my life, to contribute to my success. This creative exercise works again, to prepare me for the next occasion.
  • The paralyzing effect that some opportunities make me experience taught me something positive about myself as well: I can overcome that, no matter how difficult it appears to be. I am able to not let my feelings and emotions play too big of a role by accepting what I feel at that time, acting with flaws, being like I am in those moments (and possibly seen as shy and not that smart or wise, since my speech becomes so poor) and forgiving myself once I overcame it.
  • I learned to forgive myself for these failures and spread confetti in my heart. If I will not do that, I will never stop being so critical of myself, I might never let go of my Utopian goal and will forever be miserable since pursuing an unrealistic ambition, such as perfectionism in everything I am (even though mine is quite sincere), will make me lose perspective and feel dissatisfied not only with myself, but with others too, as the perfectionism style will surround my perception of my dear ones experiences as well. Human existence is relative. It is not black and white. It is a lot of shades of grey. Understanding this, being conscious of this will form the basis for my self love and true happiness. And I believe it can help you too.
  • One last thing that I would like to mention I have learned about myself from my missed opportunities resides in the fact that the regret of missing it, will make me, the next time another one presents itself at my door, to actually get out of my comfort zone and try to regret the paralyzing effect rather than the lack of it and its wise teachings.

What did you learn from your missed opportunities? Share them with me in the comments down below! 

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Creative vs. Artistic

I just realized that whenever I was thinking of myself on how to be more creative, my mind was actually taking the notion of “creative” as the synonym to “artistic”. These 2 concepts are different. They integrate themselves, they collide into each other, however they are not the same thing. The reason we hold a specific definition to a concept is in my opinion based on our motivations, desires and personal values. The fact is that I wish to be artistic because I value art, I see it as a form to pinpoint cultural aspects or society trends or different personality traits or aspects we all must work on to improve not just ourselves and our lives, but our society as well. I realized that I am actually drawn to wish to become artistic, to have something of value to offer, to bring something to change people’s lives. To offer support and help and be someone that is looked at for insights, wisdom, purpose, beauty, creativity and lifestyle. But that they are all under this umbrella of “artist”. I want to be an artist of life.

I always misunderstood the concept of being creative to being artistic. Being creative is showing our originality to the world. Being artistic is showing that originality but teaching something through it. Impacting society, people’s lives. Impacting. Like magic.

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The 3 secrets of magic according to magician Ferdinando Buscena are:

  1. Reality is not always what it seems to be
  2. Imagination creates reality
  3. Reality is made up of words

I should be a magician. I want to offer my magic to the world. Through writing. But artistic writing.

To imagine something different, something better or something more interesting is to push the existing world into a state of change. Some of the greatest revolutionary acts of time came to be because someone had the courage to imagine something new. It’s not that I do not have the courage to imagine something new. I want to showcase that as an act of avant-garde, as something artistic, as something totally different than ever before. I am unique.

However, there are times when it’s easy to be distracted and forget about your “magic”. It’s too transforming. Too life changing probably. Or too artistic to be understood. Too dramatic maybe? I have realized this need in myself to explore this creativity that wishes to be artistic. To be an artist of something. I have not discovered that yet.

If it is true that imagination creates our reality, then we can view ourselves as alchemists (Paulo Coelho, The Alchemist, if you read that, you understand this in full), able to transform society and the culture at large with our words and ideas. We have the power to heal our lives and those of our dears ones with the magical energy that comes from our imaginations. Just by documenting our ideas, we can begin the process of change. It’s time to begin. This is a manifesto for myself. But you might find yourself involved in it as well. And I invite you to begin this journey of finding out what your artistic skills are with me. Sir Thomas Browne said: “We carry within us the wonders we seek without us.” This is probably going to be the first post in a series of articles based on discovering our true wonders.

Do you do the same? Do you secretly wish to be magic, an artist of life like me? 

Fall in love with your job

There are 3 ways you can fall in love with your job. The first one is to work in that field you have a passion about. The second is by achieving success in that type of activity you do, which ultimately will lead your heart to loving the job you are doing, because you are successful and you are valued for what you deliver. The third is when you try to accommodate yourself to the job, by using your skills, talents or passions at your current workplace, by either doing some extra activities (usually not paid) but that you truly enjoy and make you really love your job or by actually moving into a new role simply because the company you are working for needs that and you happen to be the right person at the right time. But this rarely happens. Or I have not come across this very often.

There is another way that can help you adjust yourself to start falling in love with your job. It is called using your character strengths in your current role or when you are searching for a new job.

A team of German researchers found that those who consider their job a calling use between 4-7 character strengths while performing it. The less character strengths you use, the less interested you are in what you do.

Therefore, once you know your character strengths (you can go to www.viacharacter.org to take the free survey to discover it) you can start using it at work or when you want to apply for a new position.

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I find this survey extremely helpful, because sometimes the character strengths that portray something we really love is not something we know how to name. I read about this research made on a tribe who had specific names for all green shades, which they could name, even though they were very close in shade. The researchers put these people to name our specific shade of green (the color green as we see it) that we can all name as green (as we don’t really use shades to name the green, it’s just green in our eyes for every shade of green) and they could not name it because they did not see it before. They had no idea that particular shade of green existed prior to the research and they still could not name it. That’s because we grow up with specific notions and concepts and those concepts make us understand the world. If we do not hold a concept for a specific thing, not only we cannot see it, but we cannot name it. And even if we can see it, we won’t be able to describe it. Which makes it harder to act on it.

I feel the same thing happens when we need to pin point what is it that makes us happy at work. First of all, no one teaches us how to do that and secondly, there is no notion of attributes we should have to love our jobs. So, this specific survey The Character Strengths will reveal to you your true traits. The traits that lay hidden inside you, that you can rely on when you are in the state of flow, but that which you cannot name. As you do not know how to name something you appreciate and enjoy doing. I am referring to something very specific in a particular task. As an example, my core character strength is appreciation of beauty and excellence, followed by creativity, honesty, love, judgement and love of learning. Now, if you think about it, what jobs do you see advertised that can offer me that? The feeling of appreciation of beauty and excellence, creativity, honesty, judgement? It is a feeling I experience when I create on my blog, but then, who will pay me for my blog? I must have a huge following to start receiving an income just from my writing or sharing stuff here.

My core virtues are transcendence, wisdom, courage and humanity. This translates to me in a job related to healing, teaching, even artists. It is hard to find a job description saying we require artists. So, the true value of this survey consists in the fact that you get to have a name for what makes you happy when you work, you get to have a concept for that specific thing you experience when you are in the state of flow, you get to finally understand yourself better and to make the best of your time at work by following that which brings to you that creative freedom.

Therefore, I strongly recommend for you to take the survey, get a notion for your pleasurable attributes for working and start incorporating that more into your day to day working life or lifestyle in general. I guess it is fine to not necessarily work having to use all your character strengths, but will you feel happy to have that job?

We now have this opportunity to discover those traits and start acting on it. Because just as the people who could not name the green color, yet they could name all shades of green, we have a lack of understanding the basics. The very thing that makes all shades of green. 

And we only need between 4-7 character strengths to say that our jobs bring us joy. Have your first 7 core character strengths revealed here

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Ponder

SLOW IS BEAUTIFUL 

Gandhi discovered There is more to life than increasing its speed. And I think this is just beautiful. And slow is beautiful. Some things cannot and should not be sped up. They take time, they need slowness.

Have you heard about the slow movement? I know (and confirmed it through my reads) that it actually started in the city of Bra, Italy with the Slow Food movement, which supports the idea that eating should be something enjoyable, something cooked and consumed at a relaxed pace. When I was working in telesales, I remember calling clients and leads in Italy, and their lunch time was of 2 hours. Watching Michael Moore’s movie Where to Invade Next, I understood why. They go home to eat with families at lunch, that’s why their lunch time is 2 hours long. How amazing would that be to happen everywhere?

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But there’s no time for that! Our corporate obsessed minds are too busy to waste 2 hours only on lunch! I mean, lunches nowadays have become like skimmed milk – a taste of lunch, to keep you skinny, yet unhealthy, hungry all the time and moody, living with the illusion that you ate well and healthy. We do not have time for our minds to chill. We keep them too busy all the time, and we demand so much of ourselves. Yet, we offer ourselves so little. Because there is no time for that either.

Slow movement is not about doing everything at a snail’s pace. On the contrary, the movement is made up of people like you and me, people who want to live better in a fast-paced, modern world. The slow philosophy can be summed up in a single word: balance. Be fast when it makes sense to be fast (like a marathon) and be slow when slowness is called for (like having your lunch peacefully). Seek to live at what musicians call the tempo giusto – the right speed.

The paradox is that slow does not mean slow. Performing a task in a slow manner sometimes brings faster results. It is also possible to do things quickly while maintaining a slow mindset.

I realized that Pond written by Claire Louise Bennett is a tribute to the slow movement. Because reading it, it puts you into that slow frame of mind, when you ponder your thoughts, your sensations, your perceptions, your observations, your actions and your words. Reading Pond is like sunbathing on an island you visit off peak season. You get to see the beauty of the lonely landscape, you get to appreciate it and then you wonder how you could have ever visited that in full crowded season. It’s the same with understanding the slow movement.

You must surrender to it to experiment and you will not wish to go back. I praise the slow and I praise Pond, because with each day that passes, I turn more and more to re-reading sentences in this exceptional book. It might be the fact that it feels as if I give my mind the time to enjoy each word and each logic of the train of thoughts expressed through Claire Louise Bennett’s creative writing skills. In this glorious fast-paced world, my mind has no time to grasp all that it wishes to grasp, because I am forced to hurry up and not stop to ponder or balance the world I see in my brain, I am forced to move on instead of taking it all in, I am forced to let go of things I do not wish to let go. I am told quantity is desirable, ALONG with quality. I question how can you attain 2 opposites. How can you desperately climb a mountain and enjoy the ocean simultaneously? It’s impossible. Yet, corporations and society defies all physics and forces us to convert ourselves into some kind of robots with superpowers, losing our humanity, since that’s not a resource that can make money. Multitasking does. Being paid for 2, 3 or even more jobs in a single low paid one. This is the fast world we live in. We cease to see it because it is not nice to discover you are living a delusion in which you think you are a human with a multitude of by default skills and competencies that you were brought up to take pride in.

We are being convinced it is ok and even desirable to wish to achieve robotic features. We are only convincing our minds about our souls who do not matter anymore.

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Because our souls take joy in the slowness of it all. I believe we will soon move towards the slow world just as we switched to the fast paced one, since there is more to life than increasing its speed. As Claire Louise Bennett puts it in her book: “Beginning very ordinarily, it ought to be said, and then, via a series of protracted yet imperceptible increments, the sky imported the trenchant beauty and dubious brilliance of a new and unnamed world.”

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What do you need to take the leap?

Vision, time, support, confidence, courage, desire, dreams, opportunities, new horizons, changes, power, health. Words that make up the personality who can choose a path and stick to it. Not wonder around, distracted by wolves, like the Little Red Riding Hood. Stick to your plans no matter the obstacles. Resilience. Resistance. Trust.

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Probably, I am made of that. You are probably created with those words as well. All parents wish success to their children. I bet yours were not an exception. We were all created and we all came on this Earth with a strong desire to become the best possible version of ourselves. But, to take a risk and go on your own might involve attaining some external expectations as well. Not just yours. Or maybe yours are not that big. Maybe you do not dream to become famous, rich or well known. Maybe you just dream to have a tranquil, beautiful decent life. Not rich, but not poor either. Not stressed, but not bored either. Not monotonous, but not risky or too adventurous either. You probably just want to be at peace. In the flow.

I know I secretly wish that serenity. And the flow. I want to stream like a cold refreshing river: simple, alive, helpful, peaceful and powerful, persistent. Never ending.

A mindset, a motto, a goal dream, a vocation, a passion, an obsession. We all live these feelings. These words are more than just words, they are filled with sensations, with emotions, with memories, with wishes, with vivid images of our desires and needs. It’s a cocktail. I am drunk. I drink too much dreams. I make my own dreams and then immerse myself in them, daydreaming. No action though. No steps to realize them, to actually live them, instead of breathing the illusion of living it.

I find that the urge to do something comes in waves, sometimes a persistent itch, that makes me wanna scratch it until I bleed, sometimes as a passing thought in my train of daydreaming thoughts. And I do not pay enough attention to it. I know I am capable of a lot. But am I really capable? Or I am lying to myself, giving myself the time to let the time pass by and then have the excuse, it’s passed my time to try that or change something? I feel my unconscious mind is doing a sabotage to me. So, that I won’t feel the pain of failure.

Because failure is so scary. At least to me. And that’s how perfectionism is born within a human soul.

I am trying to do that exercise with imagining all the possible worst case scenarios and having a back plan for everything, however, I do not trust myself enough with it. I feel I will regret the decision of taking the leap. Thinking I would have wasted my time. Thinking I would have lost energy, money and time. Time is of exceptional precious importance and value to me. It’s fundamental. Because I use time to make money. I use time to obtain energy to make money. I use time to daydream. I use time to do things. It’s why I am so careful with to whom I am giving my time.

And at a close look, I, most of the time, use it to work in an environment that does not contribute to my well being overall. It does not make me grow. It became monotonous. And it is taking my energy. My spirit. My glow. Like in the old Sailor Moon cartoons, when villains would take away the souls of innocent people to feed their lives, their time, their success, their power. I am giving my power to something I do not particularly enjoy. What am I talking about, I totally dislike it. I am in it for the money. I want to be in it for the sake of it.

For fun.

I want to have fun. To be in the flow. To enjoy my time at the office. I want constant positive wonderful uplifting change. Satisfaction. Like a spring water discovery feeling. Like a waterfall. But, for my soul.

I realized I need vision. I need resistance with myself in all environments. It’s not that I am not though. I am. But I am weak in face of adversity. I am resistant. But in face of resistance, I fail to trust myself or learn to trust my strengths more, rather I succeed in getting my faith weakened. And then doubts start creating a web in my heart.

Do you question weather you deserve a different life?

I read that question recently, and I keep asking myself for an answer. I do not want to sound arrogant to my subconscious mind and I do not need to have self pity or low self esteem thinking that I have not done anything to deserve something better. Because the truth is, no matter who you came to become in life, you deserve happiness, tranquility, health and success in all matters, weather spiritual, emotional or material.

You, like me, deserve to be rich in all forms richness exists.  So, do you question weather you deserve a different life? 

What do you need to take the leap? I think I need strength, vision, support and more small success to start develop a self confidence.

You sharing my blog posts, helping me grow if whatever I journal here, is giving you at least a nano size insight, will give me a boost in my self esteem. It will make me persistent more. It will motivate me. Motivate me!

I don’t really like to ask for help. And maybe this needs to change. Please, share this, if you found it meaningful in any way and do tell me in the comments section what do YOU need to make a change! Sometimes reading about other people’s experiences, can highlight your revelations.

 

Impatient 

I cannot patiently wait for tomorrow to edit something nice and share it here. This is fundamental for your self. I think you owe it to yourself. I think The alchemist by Paulo Coelho must become mandatory in schools, universities and work places.

Excerpts from the best well put into words inspirational wisdom:







 


When will you become friends with your heart?

There is no monopoly on dreams

I am reading “All grown up” by Jami Attenberg and I got to a chapter in which a very successful, beautiful, wise and independent artist is presented through main character’s eyes. I will quote everything down below as I believe you have experienced as well the feelings portrayed. It is that feeling that someone gives you that they embody everything you wish to be. It is the human being you dream to be, it is that creativity you aspire to show to the world and that will create your future, your freedom, your happiness.

“I sit at the feet of Felicia, the most famous instructor in our program. I am in her apartment in her Logan Square building, which she restored on her own. Like she took a book on home improvement out of the library, read it, and then just did the spackling and electrical wiring and tiling herself because it needed to be done. She dresses in all black, jeans, T-shirts, lacy see-through things sometimes, and she has an amazing body, tough, sinewy, tan arms and a tight ass, and long fairy-dust hair, blond-gray, which she wears in braids sometimes. Also Felicia has incredible jewelry, the real stuff, diamonds and gold and platinum, most of it inherited from an affluent aunt who never had children of her own, although Felicia did apprentice with a jeweler for a while so some of it she made herself. She has 3 solo gallery shows in the next year, one of them in Berlin, and has been commissioned to do an installation in Brazil, where she was basically given a town square to do with whatever she likes. Nothing she owns comes from a man. Everything she touches turns into something bigger. She has made herself out of scratch. I am 26 and I would cut my left tit to be her.”

The emotions those readings give you? You must have felt that with someone too. That is a form of admiring someone so much that their entire life is what you dream your life would become. Reading further “I go wherever she wants me to go and I tell her she’s perfect without her having to ask. I begin to skip classes whenever Felicia calls me. I don’t even think to say no.” A role model. An idol. A dream life. But what I actually desire is that feeling that I imagine she has when I see that person, when anyone else meets this idol of mine. As this expression of perfect life embodied in this person that everyone at some point in their life have met or seen, is surely sparkling those feelings of freedom and success and independence into everyone’s souls.

That goal or dream or objective that you have to be like that and to inspire to someone else those emotions and actions is not always something that society tolerates. Because you must make a career, you must have a house in order to be successful, so that you can feel accomplished, so that you can finally be happy.

And that’s not how it should be. To have a career, to have that house, to achieve that success are all means goals. When you wish for something SO that you can feel or be in a certain way is a means goal. The end goal, the one that makes you truly happy is the one that follows after the SO.

I want to have my own house SO that I can be free and stress free of any mortgages. SO I don’t have to work all the time to pay financial obligations. I want to be independent SO I can travel whenever I feel like and don’t bother with begging for days off work. Everything that follows the SO is an End Goal, the one that offers you that something that truly gives you happiness and peace of mind. It is that feeling we pursue. That is what makes us happy and to be able to say to others we are indeed successful.

Here are 3 most important questions for you to start writing down your end goals and stop pursuing what society tells you to:

1. What do you want to experience in this life? What do you want to see, to be like, to feel, to travel, what is your lifestyle?

2. How do you want to grow to be able to experience life and be able to do in this life? What are you gifted at, what more do you need to be able to do what you want to do?

3. What is your contribution in this life to other people? How do you want to help with the people in this life? What did you experience and learn that you can teach to others? What do you want to give?

Give yourself 3 minutes ONLY to answer each category: Experience, Growth, Contribution. Why only 3 minutes? Because if it’s more than that, your rational mind will alert you about limits that are not helping you become the extraordinary human being you are. Such limits include stupid questions like, who are you to dream you can be the best writer, who are you to deserve luxury and richness, what can you possibly offer to others when you can barely help yourself with your life, career, love etc? You see, all that is what society tells you, it tells you that you cannot be that Felicia you adore. It wants you to obey and not dream as Felicia did and how it worked for her. But I want to tell you, you owe it to yourself to dream, and take that Felicia type human being from your environment and turn it into You. Because there is no monopoly on dreams. Everyone else is concerned in either hating or embracing Felicia, because society wants you to be like that, concerned within your limits. Dream beyond those limits.

How would the world look like if we were all like Felicia? A better, happier place simply because everyone does what they love, what their souls want their bodies to do for them.

Become Felicia. Dream beyond those limits. 

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Open letter to my older self

Hi! I hope you are well. I know for sure this letter is unexpected but I believe it is a pleasant surprise for you. I imagine it would be for me if I would receive one from our past self! I want to tell you I have big dreams, lots of stuff I wish I would have accomplished by the time you would get this. And I imagine that while you are reading these lines, you smile with gratefulness as it did happen. Oh, I cannot wait to be in that place you’re now!

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At the same time, I do wonder if you are as I imagine you. First of all, still looking young, healthy, calm. Our signature. I do hope you are healthy, fit and surrounded with love and peace. I hope you are reaching your goals and you work on what makes us happy. I dream you are beautiful, pleasant, alive, kind, healthy, happy. Successful in all the ways imagined. I hope all my dreams came true through you. I wish you could reply back and reassure me of that. It would make me feel more determined.

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I dream you would send me these days a letter and tell me all the great things that await me. I wish you would say to keep my focus because it will lead me where I dream to be. I wish you would provide some advice of some sort on what passion to follow to find you. I wish you would say I will become more confident in my own powers, passions, ways to do things and that my plans will transform themselves under my eyes and I will see them happening.

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Why don’t you send me a proof that I have succeeded? Or a gift maybe, gift me something that I will create some day. I am so very curious about you. How you look now, how you dress, what you work, how your day looks like, what has become of your hobbies and dreams. I keep mentioning the same things, right? I would love to see a picture of yourself, of where you live. I am curious about the world you live in, too. How are people? And, do we have a garden, an ecological house? A cat?

How old are?

I wish to hear from you, get the answers on my questions and maybe become less anxious about the future, about my life or where is heading to. I would love to know the road ahead, thus planning on how I will fix things if they go wrong, or even, prevent them. I wish you would tell me what to expect. I would like you to tell me you are free, because the world we live in is free. Free of the burden of any financial or health stress. I want to hear from you. I need your support, your vision, your strength, your power, your courage to change.

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Please, be well!

Yours,

Always,

Georgyana

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We cannot bloom when it’s dark

I am fighting the forces that try to down me. These forces are sometimes invisible because they are subtle. They come from lots of things that we deal with on a daily basis. These are forces of the world. Of the society we live in. These are compromises that try to collide us into deals we do not want to do, but capture our souls with some incentives we believe we need. We are made wishful for things we do not require. We are made believe that we are less than what we truly are.

We are like opened flowers in the dark hoping the dawn is soon to finally live. But we die in the dark. We are flowers. We cannot bloom in the dark. 

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You are fighting with your ego. With your self. With your spirit. Your mind is not letting you see the scream your heart is trying to pull out to force you to see a different type of force that needs your attention and your enslavement. You are a slave of this empty world of persons that are not real. You are a slave of your mind. When you should be enslaved only to your own self. And maybe you do not like the word “slave”. But how else can you call someone that denies oneself a happy tranquil life doing what one enjoys and what one experiences flow state with? How can you name someone that gives their time to something that has lost its meaning, its purpose, its joy, its fun? Is it not a prison? Like a cage we set ourselves up to willingly, believing that if it’s nicely adorned we are going to be happy inside. In the box of our own minds and brains. In the dark. We can never be free when we are safe inside. Locked away from the feelings of letting oneself surrender to life, to its powers, to its TRUE REAL forces that would only lead us to our enlightenment.

We are fighting with each other instead of fighting against the ego we hold on in our hearts, draining our energies to pursue our vocations, our passions, our love for life. We fight with our hearts to go to a place we do not belong, with the delusion that if we go there, we will eventually belong…somewhere. We fight each other because some of us do have the courage to stand up for others. And we fight those people that try to set us free from our own enslavement and our own blindness to the reality we each make for ourselves as we tolerate it for us to exist. We tolerate our lives in certain ways because we have not experienced any new ways, any better ways. We fight, we struggle, we hustle and we believe that this is how life should be. This is what we were born for. To hustle. To fight. To demand. To go for it.

But I fight with myself daily to not lose my perspective. I fight with my own mind and heart and spirit and character to not fight with the wrong army or against a friend disguised by others into an enemy. But I fight to fight the fight.

We fight. We fight. We fight. To stay alive and colorful and vibrant and happy in the cold dark. But we won’t bloom in anymore than what we managed to do so, up until the dark came over us.

The darkness keeps us all separated. Afraid of who is there. Vigilant to fight someone or something. We don’t know. It’s too dark to see. We need to strike back. We need to fight…

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I wonder if this continuous war in the world is not actually an expression of the war that struggles to come to a peace inside ourselves, between our own forces. The forces of our minds, of our souls and of our spirits. Of our sense to do justice. To not have not had justice. To not have been made wrong by something or someone, or even by our own voices.

I wonder how this jungle can be tamed. How can we even learn tranquility if the environment we live in, is never at peace? How can we demand of ourselves to be at peace and calm and present when we are surrounded with hate, with wars, with struggles, with injustice and with the stress that comes from all that? How can we ask of ourselves to live in the present, to be in the now, when we do not like the present? How can we judge ourselves for wanting to escape reality because it is too harsh, it is injustice, it is not fair at all? How can we blame other people for doing this, when we contribute through our indifference and ignorance of the world situation, to that environment?

we cannot bloom in the darkWhy can’t we see that we are all enslaved to this war zone and we perpetuate it by ignoring to fight it? We fight, but we actually fight to hide. To hide from the truth and to hide the truth because we are afraid of what it might do to us if we reveal it to ourselves even and to others as well. We would really need to fight at that point.

But I still fight. Silently. Until it cannot stay inside this fight and it will show on the outside.

I fight.